it is scary to sit in a place thinking that you were made wrong.
the negative beliefs and thoughts that live within you are your reality - the reality that you run from and make choices from.
this becomes your darkness
it can and does become so heavy that you can barely handle it - never mind bring it to the surface for everyone else to see and put judgement on. I get the whole battle!!
you feel comfortable being there but you hate it... this is what you know and what you don't know scares you
you visualize yourself screaming on the inside, as you smile on the outside... shaking hands with people at work, or at church, or on the street, or at the market, or at home with your kids. I understand. It can seem as though we are all like porcelain dolls, wearing masks.
it can be painful to even think about starting a healing process. you are not alone, many people feel this way too. feel safe to become aware that this is what is real to you, right now and it can change... IT CAN CHANGE