"I’ve found that over many years of repressing and keeping my emotions inside (from fear of others’ and my own judgement) that these emotions can become toxic and they will find a way to be expressed... they need to be released and dealt with."
sometimes, we end up expressing in ways that may not be healthy for us or others’ around us. emotional release can be rewarding and it can be lovely.
this process takes time but it definitely is one of the many steps to healing.
first, we need to establish safety and trust... you are safe here - safe from anyone criticizing your words, your actions, your emotions, your process. trust will come naturally after you realize that you are safe, some people don’t know trust or how it feels - that's ok, I understand because I felt the same way... your intuition will recognize this new feeling and will allow you to proceed. as much as you may not want to express or trust or feel safe... believe me, your body and soul need this and will want to do this.